I’m going to share the story of a Shamanic Healing that totally changed my life.
In January of 2018 I started a one-woman housekeeping business so I could take my Apprenticeship in shamanic healing, control my schedule, and support my family.
I marketed this business as both physical cleaning and energetic cleansing of people’s homes. I was only two years into my shamanic path and I went into that work with the idea that I needed to mentally focus on, and control, the energetic cleansing.
Well, with one of my earliest clients I had an experience where they had very unrealistic expectations of how much I could get done and how detailed and perfectly I could do it in 3 hours.
When the client got home as I was wrapping up, they expressed displeasure with what I had and hadn’t done. My own primary woundings meant this criticism deeply called into question my worth, and it sent me into a mental spin for days!
So, I sought healing for it from my teacher and one of her more advanced apprenticeship students. The healing work that the student did was extremely powerful and totally changed my life!
In the diagnostic journey that she did on my behalf, she was told by her spirit guides that there were two unhealthy core beliefs I held that were touched in this incident:
1. That I am my work- that I only exist in relation to the work I do.
2. If I’m not perfect, then I don’t count at all.
When we got to the Healing Journey, I felt like she was ripping apart or ripping out of me my identification of myself with my work! Big emotions surged up and tears began rolling down my face.
I began repeating silently to myself “I am not my work, I am not my work, I am not my work, I am not my work” over and over, and then a scary question popped into my mind- “if I am not my work, then what am I?”
The answer didn’t come right away, so I had to sit with that disconcerting question- If I am not my work, then what am I?
Finally, the answer came all at once: I am love! I am light!
I know it sounds cliche- but I was having a Spiritual experience of feeling and deeply knowing the absolute truth of that!
And then laughter came through me, full belly, big laughter, the kind that shook my whole body. It lasted for maybe 10 minutes! Laughter is not easy for me to access, so when it does come, laughter is so healing for me!
And then I understood that I didn’t need to mentally focus on energetically cleansing people’s homes, just my presence, and my enjoyment of the work would bring the cleansing energy with it.
And I also knew that client’s judgment of me was their problem and not mine, and I was able to let that go and move forward feeling good about myself and my work.
This healing opened the pathway for me to truly enjoy cleaning people’s homes. I would sing while I cleaned, and the singing was fun, healing, creative, and the singing moved the cleansing energy!
Blessings and Courage,
Betti